would you dance with me?.

Friday, March 23, 2007

11:06 PM

maybe, just maybe i should not have come
maybe, just maybe i should not have stayed
maybe, just maybe i should not have accepted

should i have come or should i have stayed....
with these past few weeks i have found out that my true place should not have been with you guys
or maybe it is
would i have changed your life?
would i have helped you in anything?
i don't think so
i could not have helped i just destroy
it isn't on purpose but its the this thing i am
this is me
useless, unloved, unwanted, incapable

want to be my friend?
do not even think about it unless you want your life to suck
that's me i make people's life suck
i suck

want to ask me for advise?
i cant keep a secret to save my life
i cant help in anything
i am useless

some of you might think that im always high and hyper
you guys are wrong
it's just a cover up.
if you were to go inside my head, you would see
that i feel guilty almost every time i speak,
being afraid of what to say is the worst..
cause i just shouldn't say anything

think im smart?
u are in the dark
i cant even be smart enough to save my life
i just have a hollow head with no thoughts

i do like being surround by people if you do not know..
but its just that if you hang around me too much,
i might just slowly ruin your lives.

should i have just stayed were i was?
in all my shy, quiet and failure glory

thanks for being friends with me guys
thanx gwyn, zong, tim, lily, sojung
thanx for being caring but i durno...i just felt that i could have done more to help you guys but i cant anymore...... i just cant...

i still do not think i should have gone...
i think i should have just suffered through neighbourhood schools...
get it over with and hate my life everyday...

i should not have even existed
i am sure that people's life on earth would have been much much better if not excellent...

"should i stay or leave? i just cant believe i could cause this much damage in such a short time"